The Modern Hoyden

I think about self-love often lately. These past few months have been an extremely uncomfortable, messy and illuminating time for me, developmentally speaking. And while I can't be sure, being in the middle, I do like to think that I am on a journey to a more peaceful state of being. Even if I wasn't able to see that when I took the first steps. I am starting to realize that I have spent a lifetime fighting a war against worthiness. While there are external factors that certainly exacerbate this, I think it's safe to say that, in the end, these attacks have largely been one sided. Me against myself. And I'm ready to surrender. Cool the hostilities, as it were. I began going to therapy in September of 2018. I spent five months working with a counselor on the fact that I felt overwhelmed. Just... all of the time. Honestly. That was the whole reason I went to see someone. I was exhausted, drowning, unfulfilled and I didn't know why. After talking to me for approximat...